- not knowing if something has happened to you or if you just decided you didn't want to hang out with me anymore.
- not knowing if i should call to find out.
- sitting in the car for too long (you'll know i'm anxious when i start reading you every sign i pass).
- having over 200 emails in my inbox.
- knowing i need to send some 500 emails on any given day.
- feeling spread too thin.
- the space between too much alone time and not enough.
- when you change or cancel plans on me at the last minute.
- not remembering driving to work b/c i was so in my head.
- knowing i have to give you feedback that i don't know how you'll take
- changing my mind on big decisions
- feeling like you left me out of your plans b/c i wasn't your right audience for whatever reason
- the gigantic staples that i'm not strong enough to remove from the mechanism on the new table
- that i'm about out of my face cream and don't have time (when stores are open) to get more
- thinking about the possibility of always being alone
- thinking about the possibility of being connected to one person for the rest of my life
- thinking about the money still owed on my house, for my surgery, etc.
- thinking that i will never move out of this house even though it was supposed to be a short term investment
- thinking i may have to drive the beetle forever
- calling someone for the first time (especially if it's a boy who i might like)
- too much clutter in my house on my desk in my life
- committing to vacations/ time off
(please note: this is merely a list, not actually how i am feeling - well except one or two at any given moment).
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